Day 1 of my 6 months sabbatical:

Hello, I’ve been making content for www.kinkmen.com since April 2008. That’s 156 movies a year. There’s only 365 days in a year. That means I have to make a movie every other day. I loved it but it was exhausting. I was ready for a sabbatical 2 years ago. LOL. I championed on as long as I could. Now, I can no more. I think it’s fair. Lots of my content is around on sexm and other sites these days, anyway! Of course there’s a lot of fear lurking around me. Not from me mind you, but from the people around me. What are you going to do? How are you going to pay your bills? What if they don’t want you back? Do you know you are throwing a lot of money away?

Listening to the little voice inside

Following the little voice inside me, I’ve gotten by splendidly. It’s been telling me to stop for a long time. Now that I’m not busy setting up for shoots and dealing with the corporate porn world (Yes, corporate porn world. It’s an actual corporation and the product is BDSM porn. There are meetings, politics, managing employees, sales revenues, marketing, web traffic, competitions, etc.), I can take the time and listen to that voice inside me. It will tell me what to do. One thing that I’m certain, whatever it is, it will be artistic :) Even as artistic as some cartoon porn at www.cartoonporno.xxx.

The company is a great place to work and I’ve made great friends there. I need to take the time now just to breathe. Don’t want to grind away my life and wonder where it all went at the age of 70. There are a lot of other fantastic companies that make some truly captivating content, I’m thinking of https://www.tubev.sex/ of course. They really set new standards for the industry.

X Van